November 2010
I think I just need to get away for a while.
Things I feel I need to say right now
I’m really sad about my mom. Every time I think about something I need to tell her or something would tell her, I just breakdown. I really miss her smell, smile, and voice. I don’t wanna forget what it sounds like. I miss her.
I just wanna hug her. But she no longer exists and that shakes me to my core. I’m surprised I’m able to function pretty well right now. And to be honest, I think it’s Divine help. The first night I couldn’t sleep at all. And then I decided to pray and every night after that I’ve been able to sleep. I even went to the meeting on Sunday, and everyone was so supportive.
Today Eugene came by to tidy our yard, and it looks beautiful. All the love, assistance and support demonstrates 1.) the kindness, sympathy and empathy of the human spirit 2.) the strength of the spiritual community Jehovah provides
WE’RE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS. I know my mom is no longer suffering, and I’m relieved that she’s relieved, but I just miss her so much, and I feel lonely, even with all the people, friends, my sisters, brothers and Dad.
I need boots.
I’m wondering if I should get bean boots for the snow. Or Hunter wellies for the rain. Or maybe some Nine West boots, or J. Crew boots?? Or Clark boots? I really don’t know what I want.
I need to get my shoes repaired for the viewing (I’m not going to look), the memorial, and the repass.
Stuff like this really makes me upset because I really wish I had my mom to help me pick and choose. I really miss her.
i want you to love me,
like i’m a hawt pie
People on the internet always say
that they’re better on the internet than in real life.
But I think I’m more awkward over the internet.
hey honey. i'm sorry to hear about your mom. i love you and i'm here if you need me. <3
thanks mg :]
i love you too
lol joanna newsom in a commercial
sometimes it's hard to grow while living in fear of the unknown
I deleted my twitter
i’m not sure why
Thank you everyone.
It really does help.
You know, as soon as I got in the door I cleaned a little and got on the computer. I never thought that checking emails and just being on the internet could bring a sense of normalcy to such a horrid situation. It makes me feel comforted.
Sigh.
Tonight my mom passed away. We’re all dealing with it as best we can. All I know is I wouldn’t like to go home. I’m very thankful for the support of my friends and family, and family have given me. That’s all I can think to say.
