I miss it. So summer’s here. I don’t want to take cello lessons this summer.
I have less stressful things to care for:
- Keeping my surroundings organized
-Preparing for meeting
-Staying with my mom.
- Getting my portfolio ready.
AND LOTS OF OTHER STUFF THAT I’M TOO BUMMED TO THINK ABOUT.
So I went over to my dad’s friend Jim’s house. We talked the whole thing over and I told him everything, not the disgusting details— but what I’ve never told anyone before. I have to tell my parents, even though the found out something was up today. I just want to move forward.
I simply want to feel at peace. Covering this up since childhood has been eating me away, and I can’t be normal unless I vomit it up. It has to come out of my mouth, and into someone else’s ears, or else I’ll never be normal.
Nick Khrenov at 8:31pm May 12
hey, i’d rather listen to My Chemical Romance and Fall Out Baby than hear Nirvana’s crap.
Danielle Fuller at 10:17pm May 12
Cody Williams at 10:45pm May 12
you must be like a fusion gay scene kid
a rare breed, yet still just as sad
Danielle Fuller at 10:58pm May 12
Cody Williams at 11:00pm May 12
no not you, the my chemical romance fall out boy kid
screamo meets gay
Danielle Fuller at 11:02pm May 12
idk, i just think he really just doesn’t like/respect nirvana.
even though, i’ll say, it’s a bit extreme to say mcr of nirvana.
Cody Williams at 11:10pm May 12
im just appalled at his music taste
Danielle Fuller at 11:15pm May 12
i don’t think he actually likes mcr and fob, but rather he superlatively hate nirvana to the degree he would take any thing but— LOL.
Nick Khrenov at 3:43pm May 13
Danielle is right. i hate MCR and Fall Out Boy but it definitely beats having to listen to Nirvana’s shit. of course i’d rather listen to some Nachtmystium or Carpathian Forest than any of those other fuckers.
Cody Williams at 5:04pm May 13
still appalling music taste.
Nick Khrenov at 5:07pm May 13
suck it up you soft little pussy whipped shit. what do you listen to?
Samuel Webster Moffett at 5:09pm May 13
Cody listens to awesome stuff.
Nick Khrenov at 5:10pm May 13
sure he does
Cody Williams at 6:15pm May 13
little pussy whipped shit. i love how inventive your insults are! you’re like the departed only not clever.
Samuel Webster Moffett at 6:40pm May 13
I’m sorry nick, but that was mad funny
Danielle Fuller at 6:50pm May 13
it’s all a matter of opinion, as long as you’re not being idealistic, there isn’t a problem. i mean turst me, there are some things i could never listen to, but i don’t bash them. besides people can’t help liking what they like, henceforth— don’t even bother, you won’t “open their eyes”. lol.
Samuel Webster Moffett at 6:56pm May 13
But back to the killing thing, i think that if I were a policemen or judge and i saw the slightest evidence that Courtney Love killed Kurt Cobain, I woulda threw her ass in court
Cody Williams at 6:56pm May 13
that only goes so far, however so as to preserve sam’s purpose of these lyrics, ill stop so as not to defile this further
Samuel Webster Moffett at 7:00pm May 13
well i think the story is as stands and thats why these lyrics are what i wrote but anyone can feel free to debate
Danielle Fuller at 7:08pm May 13
lol, way to to shirk my comment sam :]
i agree writing seperate from reality.
Cody Williams at 7:13pm May 13
regardless of who did it, id rather have a scapegoat to blame and see my hero as someone who wouldnt take the easy way out and kill himself
Danielle Fuller at 7:44pm May 13
that’s the problem with idolizing people— they all screw up somewhere, whether public or private.
you have to realize too, when people kill themselves, it’s not only because they’re pussies, but also because they are suffering (drugs, disease).
Cody Williams at 7:56pm May 13
yea, but im not about to blame it on something that i take part in.
also, when heroes fuck up, its all the better cuz then you know theyre human
i just wish they wouldnt pull shit like this
at least slash survived dying
Samuel Webster Moffett at 7:58pm May 13
My Hero is either Kurt, Mick Jagger, Bob Dylan, or Elvis Presley
Cody Williams at 8:01pm May 13
bobby d is there for me too
Nick Khrenov at 9:18pm May 13
wow, all of them are talentless hacks now, what a coincidence.
Danielle Fuller at 9:26pm May 13
lol. this is gonna be mad cheesy.
but you should be your own hero. i mean there are people who i admire, but they aren’t exemplary enough to be noble or enough for me personally. i mean i wouldn’t call a muscian a hero.
better words: pioneer, a notable? idk.
Cody Williams at 9:27pm May 13
alright seriously dude?
i backed down, get something better to do than comment on how people dont meet your dirt poor musical standards. it just makes you seem a sadder person.
Nick Khrenov at 9:29pm May 13
it is cheesy but true, i will admit that i am guilty of idolizing other musicians but it is mostly out of respect and admiration of skills that they have, not because they’re part of a band that i like. it’s just that simple, even though most of them are in bands that i like
Cody Williams at 9:32pm May 13
i dont like bands, i like the musicians in them
Nick Khrenov at 9:33pm May 13
that’s why i said parts of bands.
Cody Williams at 9:34pm May 13
Nick Khrenov at 9:35pm May 13
the way you stated you position had given a feeling that you did not read my message clearly. i suggest you word you comments better so that people with an intelligence above that of a simple primate can understand.
Danielle Fuller at 9:59pm May 13
sam do you have music for this?
i’m srry if you said so earlier.
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Samuel Webster Moffett at 2:59pm May 14
Yes danni i got music for this.
Cody Williams at 6:05pm May 14
so you’re telling me that because i dont take the time to read your message because judging from past messages you’ve written, its probably lacking substance even worth my time, that my intelligence is sub primate. i love how much sense your insults make.
Nick Khrenov at 6:07pm May 14
hey, i’m not here to try to make sense, i’m just commenting here to get a few laughs out of it
Nick Khrenov at 6:10pm May 14
i only started commenting on this to piss a few people off and laugh at their responses. i actually do like Nirvana and i do listen to music other than Death and Black Metal.
Cody Williams at 6:20pm May 14
Samuel Webster Moffett at 6:40pm May 14
i know right? lol
Danielle Fuller at 6:42pm May 14
i love this.
Nick Khrenov at 8:55pm May 14
hey, i know i’m sick, twisted, and possibly insane, but i fucking LOVE it.
Danielle Fuller at 9:05pm May 14
Nick Khrenov at 9:07pm May 14
you don’t count
Cody Williams at 9:08pm May 14
hey man you cant exclude, you’re sick remember?
Danielle Fuller at 9:09pm May 14
says you sicko.
Cody Williams at 9:09pm May 14
wait whose sick now?
Danielle Fuller at 9:11pm May 14
lol i meant nick.
I HAVE NOTHING TO PROVE.
knock, and it shall be answered to you.
Nick Khrenov at 9:11pm May 14
i definitely am, and she’s about as sick as a vaccine.
Cody Williams at 9:15pm May 14
o nuts. this party sucks, im fucked up, not sick
Samuel Webster Moffett at 9:15pm May 14
Nick Khrenov at 9:16pm May 14
please, you’re not fucked up at all
Cody Williams at 9:18pm May 14
you’d be suprised
Nick Khrenov at 9:19pm May 14
right, sure i would be
Samuel Webster Moffett at 9:22pm May 14
Wait what has this comment board turned into?
Cody Williams at 9:22pm May 14
im not sure. you should just repost the lyrics and get rid of this
Nick Khrenov at 9:23pm May 14
don’t worry about it Moffett
Samuel Webster Moffett at 9:23pm May 14
im worried about u, nick, not this comment board
Samuel Webster Moffett at 9:27pm May 14
yo cody i play bass/drums, that would be mad sick if u me, and thomas did a follies song together
Nick Khrenov at 9:28pm May 14
why the hell are you worried about me?? you’ve got no reason to be
Danielle Fuller at 9:28pm May 14
if you were trying to imply that i’m not “sick”
by use of a simile (vaccine) then you did exactly the opposite— vaccines are technically made of bacteria…
BLEH!… Read More
Nick Khrenov at 9:31pm May 14
i realize that but still, you’re not sick. at all. you’re probably one of the most normal people here.
Cody Williams at 9:36pm May 14
dude sam we should
and i only know sam so im not one to comment on anyone’s normality
yet ill point out that dressing up like dimmu borgir and posting pictures of it on facebook is just wierd (nick)
Danielle Fuller at 9:39pm May 14
lol, i’m not about to sit here argue about who i am to someone i’ve only, barely even met once. lol. Everybody’s”normal”on the surface hun. You’re not the only teenager that hasn’t come to the realization yet, that this world is ugly, and so is everybody in it.
well in a nutshell— YOU DON’T KNOW MY LIFE.
besides we all idealize ourselves on the web, so anybody u “know” virtually, is probably nothing like they seem to be through the screen…. Read More
Samuel Webster Moffett at 9:40pm May 14
Cody we should do something classic and easy like “satisfaction” or “stairway to heaven”
Nick Khrenov at 9:43pm May 14
funny how everything you say, means nothing to me. because in reality, we are all nothing, it’s all we ever were since the bitch we know and hate as our mothers brought us into this world, and it’s what we all shall be when we perish from this earth.
Cody Williams at 9:45pm May 14
danielle fuller, i dont know you and that was my point
not to contest your normality or my normality or anyone’s normality
in fact the dimmu borgir comment was aimed at not you, but nick mcrussianface
i have no idea where you’re pulling these ideas out of
and sam, thats would be awesome
Nick Khrenov at 9:48pm May 14
it was aimed, at every single worthless scum breeding on this dying rock we call a planet.
Danielle Fuller at 9:49pm May 14
Well that’s what i call getting fuzzy and philosophical (tandem biking).
besides the reality your talking about is yours.
there’s a difference between NOTHING and MINUSCULE.
besides i love my mother, even if i was a mistake or she was a mistake.
and when we die we become dust hun, that’s not nothing. that’s diminutive.
I hate the word sad, it doesn’t describe the feeling properly. Neither does depressed, because both have skewed connotations. Idk, I just hate that people die. It’s probably why I cleave to my “religion”. I’m really afraid that my parents will die. Usually with people I know, their parent or parents either die when they’re young, so they kind of heal up, onlyntrly. And otherwise they’re too old to even care. Anyways, in any case usually in my immediate surroundings, me and my mom have ALWAYS defied death. And I think it’s for a reason.
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DIE. I HATE IT. And everyone just thinks ur all butthurt and lame because you’re sensitive. I’m not sensitive because I’m egocentric, or ignorant.
I have so much to say, but I’m talking to kyle on the phone, and at this time in my life I CAN’T MULTI-TASK.
AT LEAST SUMMER VACAY’S HERE!
AGREEEEEEEED. SO GLAD YOU SAID THIS. cuz idk how.
If you “don’t get along with girls,” it’s probably because you are a bitch.
Just a general statement of motivation to people such as Megan Fox.